As many of you know, I have been on a true journey the past
few years. Coming to terms and grips with hurts, addressing more of my past and
simply operating in the realms of love and forgiveness, feeling whole and complete
within my skin. There will always be a battle to be fought and won and there
are times I find myself under attack. In the past, the attack has been on my
morality, finances, my spirituality, and now I am battling my mind between this
love and lust thing.
There is this saying so many of us use these days to justify
behavior, “You only live once”. Yes, this is a true statement, YOLO, so true.
But within this statement I find myself telling myself, “You’ve allowed your
soul to die once, that’s more than enough.” But temptation can be a mofu!!!
While I know exactly what I desire in a mate, when something else is presented to
me that I know is no good for me, its becomes war to avoid it at all costs,
especially when strong attraction is evident. I battle the shoulds and should
nots over and over again in my mind. And now more than ever, I am fully aware
of myself, I am present, I see me, I’m connected to me, my feelings, emotions,
desires, my yearnings. I am then reminded not to block my blessings.
I am a Christian, I am a woman, a mother; I am blood pumping
and heart beating flesh and regardless of what I presume to know the right
course of action to be, what I do know is that holding out for what I truly
want, desire need on many levels is not as easy to hold out for. Although, I
never thought it would be easy, I also didn’t realize how strong the
temptation would be until it presented itself. So yes, this is war for me, this
love and lust thing. I am praying hard, speaking into my life, as well as
others. Think what you will…but I hope not to succumb to the latter, and that’s
real.
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
Shamina
HE SAID SHE SAID
He said he wanted to smell it
I said put your face in it
He said he wanted to taste it
I said he would need to suck it
He said he wanted to kiss it
I said I want you to lick it
He said he wanted to put his finger in it
I said sure, but hum on it
I said sure, but hum on it
He said he wanted to squeeze on it
I said nibble on it
He said he wanted to blow on it
I said put sum ice on it, chew sum gum and nibble on it
He said he wanted to watch
I said why not
He said he wanted to watch
I said why not
He said he wanted to tease
I said I wanted to be pleased
He said he wanted to grab and pull
I said I wanted more and more
He said he wanted to hit the floor
I said I couldn't take no more
He said she said and they went they separate ways and slept
in their respective beds
