Well, we are well into the new year, and I am behind in my posts. My life has been experiencing a lot of change since the beginning of the new year, and the changes are all great and very rewarding. I found myself dealing with tons of confusion. Confusion from many different sources, even me as the source as some of it. I quickly recognized it and begin to get rid of it.
You know, all too often we accept anything from people we allow in our lives, people we allow to be apart of our energies, and we have to know when situations become unhealthy for us. That's not always easy, but I think we are built and wired with a certain intuition that provides us with warning signs.
I believe that confusion leads to stress, second guessing ourselves, fear, doubt and many other symptoms that become unhealthy. We have to know when to throw in the towel, when a situation drains and pulls your energy to depletion, when individuals become selfish, uncompromising, controlling, or simply down right disrespectful. I have recently experienced all of those things until I woke up and said, I deserve more than this.
What was weird though, is that I actually began to function and operate within the confusion as if it was normal. As if there was something I had done to attract it and foster it, but it was the total opposite. Things, people, environments, the stress levels of others' change often and change quickly at times, and sometimes, if your not careful, you can allow it to affect you and become apart of who you are, and not for the betterment of yourself, nor those around you.
I have two little girls at home, one 13 and one 19 month old, and I don't want to raise them around confusion, chaos, disrespect, nor situations that lack love, compromise and understanding.
I never want to wake up again, shutting myself off from the world, concentrating on all the confusing thoughts in my head, when all I had to do was eliminate that which was causing me confusion, stress and unhappiness. You have to live in order to be considered living and there is no living if your living in a state of confusion. Wake up happy and thankful, and give to someone daily. You never know what a smile, a nod hello, or a kind word can do for a person, and being focused totally on you and yours and some of the situations you got going on, you never think twice about someone else. You never stop to look up at the sky and marvel at the peace and serenity that rests above which also resides within your being.
So today, I ask you to look at your life and look at the areas that cause you stress and strife, and those that are out of you control, don't focus on them, and those that are within your control, eradicate them and be empowered that you are taking back control of your life, situations, and removing those individuals that give you negative energy while depleting you of your good energy.
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
I Wanna Be Free
I wanna be free
Free to dwell in the midst of me
Free to love in such a harsh society
Free to be in the presence of the bitter sweet
I wanna be free
Free to love in the midst of me
Free to be in a place and space where He resides
Free to allow my pain to subside
I wanna be free
Free to experience an oneness and peace with my soul
Free to be bold, courageous and solid gold
Free to allow my emotions to unfold
I wanna be free
Free to experience a first with another
Free to behold and uphold a certain quality and standard
Free to be unselfish and uncompromising
I wanna be free
I simply wanna be free to experience me
