Bitter With the Sweet

There’s this saying, “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade”, I’m sure your fully aware of this saying. My question is do you make lemons or lemonade? I think it’s easy to become negative, get down on yourself and take on the “woe is me” attitude, but does that make you feel better about yourself? Well, for me it did not. I recall the days all too well when I was that girl. I felt as if I couldn’t get a break. I had to contend with so much so often that I didn’t even realize my role in my own unhappiness.

I’ve found that exerting positivity can sometimes take a little more work and effort than its counterpart, but it’s truly worth the effort. I now surround myself with positive people, affirmations, literature and most importantly in my world, the word of God. I’m mindful of what I feed myself, even when it comes to music and what I watch on television. I make a conscious effort to accentuate my happy place these days and I focus on the day, not my past and not what’s to come, making sure I plan for the best outcomes in all situations, as best I can.

There are days where I still struggle with finding my happy. I especially struggle when I feel like situations converge upon me in a day or a few days’ time, but I quickly go “inside” of myself and find that place of peace and happiness. I’ve discovered life is too short to give so much energy and power to the latter. All I know how to do these days is be a positive and upbeat person; I refuse to be anything else. And I so thank the angels that God has placed upon my path to water and grow me into this being. If I hadn’t had the same, I’m not sure of the person I would have become.

There are time I also become distant, I withdraw and retreat quickly these days from situations that are not bringing me life, that are not feeding my soul in a good and positive way, again, I’ve spent too much time being down on myself and exuding a negative countenance. I’ve learned how to accept the bitter with the sweet, it’s a part of life, part of growing pains, so I choose not to worry and be happy in it all!

Peace and blessings,
Shamina

My Happy

Ocean sprays, sun hung low, kissing and hugging my skin, creating glittering beads of sweat

Children laughing and playing, couples holding hands and beach strolling

Melodic tunes being orchestrated by huge waves, seagulls and folks all around, kites being flown

Huge clouds above me dancing a waltz

Electric sensations make my awareness seem cosmic like

I’m floating on air, calm and cool and my worries have been overtaken and subdued.

Take a listen to my theme song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6ZjBPXSmnE

The Magic and Power in Believing

Have you ever took notice to a child's conversation? The excitement they exude when they are in the midst of identifying an object they have recently learned; "Mom, an airplane" as they point to the sky, or "Mom, that's a bug".  Have you ever paid closer attention to the fearlessness they exhibit? You can tell them to stop jumping, but they jump anyway, even though we fear they may get hurt, but they have no fear. They strive in testing their limits, believing that they are invincible in many ways. As adults, the older we get, the more we lose this ability, most of us any way. We stop trying, we stop testing our limitations, we stop believing that anything is possible.

Our mind is a very powerful tool, and most days we don't even use half of its ability. I know that what I carry in my heart, is what ultimately inhabits my thoughts, which transcends into the world I've created.  But, my word is as big as I make it! My circumstances are as small as I allow them to be, not as big as I can make them. Currently, I am operating within this world where what I love near and dear is what I concentrate on and its what will be manifested into my reality.  I am imagining myself where I wish to be, and steadily expanding my world to include those who are established in the areas I wish to be.

Today, I am believing in what I want, asking for what I want, even if 10 people tell me no, I believe that someone will tell me yes. There is power in your dream, but we must do the work to make our dreams come true. In addition to believing it will come to pass, we have to be fearless enough to do the action required to bring the thing into fruition! We also have to be bold enough to remove the road blocks that we have created for ourselves, especially removing the hold that past experiences still have on us. The past is behind us and we must move into the realm of forgiveness and healing, and believe in the future that awaits.

I encourage you to use the power of belief today, and everyday to create this world that you could never imagine, this world that continues to grow and expand from the love and positivity that you have nurtured and cultivated it with. Push, do, live this day and your best life possible, set your own standard. What are you waiting for? There is magic and power in believing good people, and today I am imagining myself as the poet, writer and activist that I am.

Peace and blessings,
Shamina

BELIEVING

 Gonna close my eyes, reach the sublime and meet the whispers of my unconsciousness in my dreams

Open my mind; it’s a new day filled with new times, new adventures to find

This is my ship and I am the captain, here my limits are non-existent, the waters uncharted, so magnificent

I've met my peace with sheer will and grace, I am not who you say I am, I am a beast at what I do

I believe in me, I’m a dream maker, dream catcher, dream releaser

The writing is literally on the wall for you all

I’m hitting the stage, far from dismayed, my words filling your soul, stirring emotions, and your brain is working

I’ve met my peace and there is no turning back now, the road is narrow, but I’m still in pursuit

My heart is no longer heavy, my words are no longer stuck in my throat, my past has left me and my future awaits me

The hurdles I’ve jumped, the race I’ve won, the victory is mine, and I’ve only just begun

I refuse to stop at the ceiling when God has given me the sky

I’ve met my peace, my passion I will pursue, and my purpose He will continue to reveal
I believe in me and therefor believe in you

Give Some To Yourself

As we bring 2011 to a close, we reflect back on this past year. I'm sure we all have many stories to tell, some that are still unfolding, that we'll take into the new year.  But, as we reflect, as I reflect, I am thinking hard on the things, people, situations I will leave behind in 2011.

The Christmas holiday symbolizes giving, although the media and most of our society has commercialized the season, its still one of my favorites.  We come together, do for others, give to others, and celebrate the birth of our Savior with family and friends.  This past holiday season, I couldn't give much to others that involved monetary gifts, but I always try to give myself to others.  Whether its a meal, hospitality, a prayer, my time, my love, I tried to give something, but I found I didn't give myself much of anything.

So, for the last few days of this wonderful month of December, I will give myself to me, some quiet time, some laughter, some peace, and some happiness, and a whole lot of love.  I will be selfish, I will be uncompromising, I will put myself first, I will do exactly what I want to do for me, myself and I.
So with that, I say, happy holidays and have a wonderful new year!

Peace and blessings,
Shamina

GUESS

I guess its time that I really stop trying, this dating thing that is
I guess its time for me to really give God a chance
Give myself some time for some true healing.
See, I've never really been without a man, or some imitation of someone that resembled something like a man
I guess its time for me to dig deep within
Give my mind some peace and true relaxation, accomplish some things that have been plaguing me.
So, its time to tuck my heart away, hide it from those clones who may be lurking around night and day...
Time to let my soul fly free, become truly excited about being in the midst of me.
Being happy with the woman God has fashioned of me
I guess I've given so much of myself to others, that I haven't given much of anything to me.
So I guess in this season and spirit of giving, I'm giving my heart back to me and will prosper in the things that God has for me.