Here Comes Another One

As we prepare to bring 2012 to a close, I reflect on what a wonderful year this has been for me. Yes, I’ve encountered some tests, but I am still here, living, kicking and loving like never before, and who I loved the most this year was definitely me and my babies. 2012 Was definitely a year of firsts for me. I’ve done things that I had been afraid to attempt in the past, and although everything didn’t work out the way I expected, it worked out all the same. I have learned so much more about the woman that I am and finally learning to trust the process and progression of the development of the woman that I’ve not yet become. I put me, my wants, desires and needs to the forefront of my life and I settled for nothing in 2012.

I’ve learned that there are always issues that arise in our lives, but every issue doesn’t involve lack, struggle or a battle to be fought and won. Some things you simply must bask in the lesson, find peace and let go. Folks will always have an opinion of you, some may even believe they know you a lot better then you know yourself, which is cool, folks are entitled to their opinions. But I have held strong to knowing who I am, my hang-ups, faults, my issues, as we all have them, and I’ve embraced them. I was no victim to any circumstance in 2012 and I have been completely liberated from guilt, shame, and feelings of inadequacy and inferiority.

This year I landed a new position which I love, working with some great colleagues, full of knowledge, I have finished my first book, awaiting its publication and I have several irons in the fire. Yes, I have much more to work on, but I am here, my children are healthy and I am secure, working towards the dreams that enter my consciousness, asking no one for anything, but tapping into the power that lives in me to will my innermost desires into fruition. Things can only become bigger and brighter in the New Year and I am concentrating on all the good in my life!!!

Happy New Year everyone! Wishing you nothing but peace, joy and many blessings for 2013.

With love and light,
Shamina

More of me…

I am love, I am light, I am blessed, I am smiles, I am butterfly kisses, I am deep, I am sensual, I am a lady, I am hood, I am intelligent…

I am so much more than I give myself credit for!

I am beautiful, inside and out, I am territorial, I protect my den, I am laughter, I am hurt and pain, I am confident, I am a conqueror, I am a queen, I am long legs, fat thighs with pretty lips and a beautiful smile...

I am anger, I am attitude, I am spoiled, I am emotional, I am funny acting, I am standoffish, I am. Simply, I am a lot of things...

Give Some To Yourself

As we bring 2011 to a close, we reflect back on this past year. I'm sure we all have many stories to tell, some that are still unfolding, that we'll take into the new year.  But, as we reflect, as I reflect, I am thinking hard on the things, people, situations I will leave behind in 2011.

The Christmas holiday symbolizes giving, although the media and most of our society has commercialized the season, its still one of my favorites.  We come together, do for others, give to others, and celebrate the birth of our Savior with family and friends.  This past holiday season, I couldn't give much to others that involved monetary gifts, but I always try to give myself to others.  Whether its a meal, hospitality, a prayer, my time, my love, I tried to give something, but I found I didn't give myself much of anything.

So, for the last few days of this wonderful month of December, I will give myself to me, some quiet time, some laughter, some peace, and some happiness, and a whole lot of love.  I will be selfish, I will be uncompromising, I will put myself first, I will do exactly what I want to do for me, myself and I.
So with that, I say, happy holidays and have a wonderful new year!

Peace and blessings,
Shamina

GUESS

I guess its time that I really stop trying, this dating thing that is
I guess its time for me to really give God a chance
Give myself some time for some true healing.
See, I've never really been without a man, or some imitation of someone that resembled something like a man
I guess its time for me to dig deep within
Give my mind some peace and true relaxation, accomplish some things that have been plaguing me.
So, its time to tuck my heart away, hide it from those clones who may be lurking around night and day...
Time to let my soul fly free, become truly excited about being in the midst of me.
Being happy with the woman God has fashioned of me
I guess I've given so much of myself to others, that I haven't given much of anything to me.
So I guess in this season and spirit of giving, I'm giving my heart back to me and will prosper in the things that God has for me.