Recently, I have written about a few topics that have motivated me. I am always positive and uplifting, but this month, I have been challenged to stay positive, I started to forget who keeps me. This month it seemed that everything that could possibly come against me and attack me has, and within the past few days I have felt defeated. But I know, the devil is a liar, and he is already defeated in my life. I know first hand that God has kept me during all of my trials, even when it appeared I was faint at heart. I know I am a strong woman, but greater is He that is in me, then he that is in this world.
So with all this being said, I have really had to seek God this month, for many things. There have been quite a few days where I couldn't pray, didn't know where to begin to pray, nor did I know what to pray for. What has been a constant in my mind the past few days is the question, "Where is your courage"? Am I continuously focusing and looking down on the circumstances that are plaguing me, or I am rejoicing for where I am and what I have, looking up with expectation for the breakthrough that God is working on?
Faith is a tricky concept for a lot of us, especially those of us who claim to be sold out for Christ. We forget His word and allow our thinking, and not the Holy Ghost to operate and work for us. I forget I have that power sometimes, I forget how to walk by faith and not by sight. I didn't want to get too spiritual this month, as all of my readers may not be saved, but I know that what I am dealing with is more spiritual and far from natural. What I'm dealing with is testing my courage, my faith, my will, truly believing that when I can't, He will. Knowing that I have exhausted all possibilities, but His supplies and resources are unlimited.
Today, I am better, I know that I am a Kingdom Heir and that wealth and riches are in my house, I know that I lend and not borrow, I know if God is for me, who can be against me, I know that His word is life to those that find it and peace to all their flesh. I am preaching to myself here, not anyone else.
I am courageous, I can face any obstacle and not be consumed by any circumstance. So, I challenge you today to live boldly and courageously. To continue to push, no matter what it looks like. Don't allow your circumstance to dictate your expectancy, don't allow them to derail you any longer.
I know that I have not come this far to stop. I know that God has planted many visions and dreams inside me, none of which had been a dream until He revealed them, so I know a greater power operates in me and that the best is yet to come. So today, I am courageous in Him and looking up at the heavens where blessings are continuously released. Today, I give my angels charge over me and I will not punk out!!!
So, let's get it, no matter what it looks like, start living courageously.
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Get On With It
It's amazing what can manifest when people are perfectly honest with themselves. When one can truly and honestly face their hurts, failures, disappointments, fears and most of all, their anger. We all get angry, have been unforgiving, and we have all held on to past hurts for far too long. It appears that after listening to many friends this past month, I hear and sense restoration in all of their voices and spirits. I sense a feeling of acceptance with certain things that have plagued them, including myself.
Anger is very powerful and can be very destructive. We all try to act as if we are cooler than a fan, nothing gets us angry, we don't hold grudges, etc., but I beg to differ. Here, I thought I was past my anger concerning a certain situation. But I quickly realized, as I allowed acceptance to FINALLY take place and bitterness to be erased,...this is when I started to actually move past my anger, allowing things to unfold as they should have long ago. Putting aside ego, pride and differences.
For me, I like to think, in every situation, that I always make the right decisions for me and my family, quality decisions. I like to think that at every turn, my actions are warranted and justified. Well, I also hate to admit when I am wrong or when I've made poor decisions. But, in doing so, I again, have learned so much more about me, and what it really means to forgive and let go, and be free. So I found myself letting go of pride and sorrow and admitting that I was wrong for a thing or two, actually apologizing and saying that I was truly sorry for my actions. Its definitely true, when you whole heartedly forgive and let go of whatever negative feelings you may be holding onto, you truly and honestly free yourself and open doors that you never imagined could be re-opened.
So, today, I beg you to truly forgive someone who you haven't, let go and get on with it!!! Living that is (SMILE).
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
Anger is very powerful and can be very destructive. We all try to act as if we are cooler than a fan, nothing gets us angry, we don't hold grudges, etc., but I beg to differ. Here, I thought I was past my anger concerning a certain situation. But I quickly realized, as I allowed acceptance to FINALLY take place and bitterness to be erased,...this is when I started to actually move past my anger, allowing things to unfold as they should have long ago. Putting aside ego, pride and differences.
For me, I like to think, in every situation, that I always make the right decisions for me and my family, quality decisions. I like to think that at every turn, my actions are warranted and justified. Well, I also hate to admit when I am wrong or when I've made poor decisions. But, in doing so, I again, have learned so much more about me, and what it really means to forgive and let go, and be free. So I found myself letting go of pride and sorrow and admitting that I was wrong for a thing or two, actually apologizing and saying that I was truly sorry for my actions. Its definitely true, when you whole heartedly forgive and let go of whatever negative feelings you may be holding onto, you truly and honestly free yourself and open doors that you never imagined could be re-opened.
So, today, I beg you to truly forgive someone who you haven't, let go and get on with it!!! Living that is (SMILE).
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
DEEP
Deep inside me there are many things I keep, many things that have seeped, like the disgusting juices piled up and compressed of the neighborhood trash, into loves of mine. Deep in the wholeness of my incompleteness, there resides an honesty that I’m afraid of, memories that terrify and lose me completely. Deep within is a love that springs forth with utterances of peace, serenity, confidence and joy…healing. Deep are the bruises, scars, soul ties that still leave scorn. Deep is my anger for those who lack patience and understanding, searching for answers to that which may be unexplainable, memories that are not trusting, loving or with reason nor clarity. Deep is a pride, a mother, a third generation of strength, education and dreams on high. Deep is my passion to live out my full potential that is as wide as all of the world’s oceans and runs as long as the Nile. Deep is my love, my deepness I wanna share with you... in time, so hold on, move slow and we will stay afloat and not be lost or consumed by my deep…thoughts.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Learning Lessons
I've heard some where before, 'You will keep receiving the same lesson until you have learned the lesson'. Not certain if it was in church, whether I interpreted this saying from scripture, or was told by a friend or elder, but, its beginning to make since to me now.
During the past few years I have learned many lessons, I have evolved and involved myself more with my personal development and growth, not anyone else. But I still haven't learned how to fully listen to my inner voice. I still haven't learned how to recognize, or maybe I should say, heed the red flags. So, with that being said, I had to re-learn a lesson, or should I say, I am learning another lesson concerning the same issue that showed up previously the past few years.
Lessons are needed for many reasons. Lessons build character; strengthen your faith and your self esteem, lessons, to put it simply, help you grow as a person. It’s definitely a freeing feeling when you’re open and honest with yourself and others. When you share your concerns, especially when it’s done with calmness, peace, love and joy in your heart. I think that too many of us don't tell others how we feel, and it hinders our growth. We make some attempt at masking and ignoring our feelings, just for them to re-surface anyway, so why not get it out. I, know, it sounds simple right.
We compromise to a fault, I know I have. I have compromised my beliefs at times, my heart, my happiness, and my morals. For the sake of any good relationship, compromise is a healthy mechanism of change and growth. But not when you compromise to a fault. I'll be the first to admit my issues, especially now at 34 I recognize where I need improvement, where I need to bend a little more and what my issues are when it comes to sharing my world with another. The areas I refuse to compromise in are the areas of respect and common courtesy, as I see them and how I define them in my life, which may be very different from your definition.
Today, I ask you to heed the red flags that are present in your world, listen to your inner voice and become open and honest with yourself. It’s a liberating feeling. So smile and accept your lesson today and don't have any guilt or second thoughts about a tough decision that may need to be made out of your lesson learned. Change what needs to be change and keep evolving. We must stop depending on our "feelings", stop being ruled by our condition, our state of mind and exhibit that will and determination that we are all born with.
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
Breathe LoveIt’s amazing something so peaceful and surreal can walk into your life so unexpectedly and you flow with it like a crisp Spring Breeze
It’s amazing how you have no worries or fears and everything around you and within you simply tells you to breathe
It was not like a whirl wind, there was no confusion
I was brought to shore I’m sure
It wasn’t all physical, it wasn’t sexual at all
It was so spiritual and mental my ancestors begin to sing inside of me
B-R-E-A-T-H-E L-O-V-E
During the past few years I have learned many lessons, I have evolved and involved myself more with my personal development and growth, not anyone else. But I still haven't learned how to fully listen to my inner voice. I still haven't learned how to recognize, or maybe I should say, heed the red flags. So, with that being said, I had to re-learn a lesson, or should I say, I am learning another lesson concerning the same issue that showed up previously the past few years.
Lessons are needed for many reasons. Lessons build character; strengthen your faith and your self esteem, lessons, to put it simply, help you grow as a person. It’s definitely a freeing feeling when you’re open and honest with yourself and others. When you share your concerns, especially when it’s done with calmness, peace, love and joy in your heart. I think that too many of us don't tell others how we feel, and it hinders our growth. We make some attempt at masking and ignoring our feelings, just for them to re-surface anyway, so why not get it out. I, know, it sounds simple right.
We compromise to a fault, I know I have. I have compromised my beliefs at times, my heart, my happiness, and my morals. For the sake of any good relationship, compromise is a healthy mechanism of change and growth. But not when you compromise to a fault. I'll be the first to admit my issues, especially now at 34 I recognize where I need improvement, where I need to bend a little more and what my issues are when it comes to sharing my world with another. The areas I refuse to compromise in are the areas of respect and common courtesy, as I see them and how I define them in my life, which may be very different from your definition.
Today, I ask you to heed the red flags that are present in your world, listen to your inner voice and become open and honest with yourself. It’s a liberating feeling. So smile and accept your lesson today and don't have any guilt or second thoughts about a tough decision that may need to be made out of your lesson learned. Change what needs to be change and keep evolving. We must stop depending on our "feelings", stop being ruled by our condition, our state of mind and exhibit that will and determination that we are all born with.
Peace and blessings,
Shamina
Breathe LoveIt’s amazing something so peaceful and surreal can walk into your life so unexpectedly and you flow with it like a crisp Spring Breeze
It’s amazing how you have no worries or fears and everything around you and within you simply tells you to breathe
It was not like a whirl wind, there was no confusion
I was brought to shore I’m sure
It wasn’t all physical, it wasn’t sexual at all
It was so spiritual and mental my ancestors begin to sing inside of me
B-R-E-A-T-H-E L-O-V-E
Copyright © Shamina Nicole Williams, 2011
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